Dear God,

If all these were planned, I really hope that this is the best for me to deal with all the emotional rides. I cant really take anymore blows.. even though Im thankful that you've made everything came true. I know in your hands, Gerard will be safe and sound, successful and all.. and even though I wish that I could be the one who can give him happiness but failed to, I hope that someone will be there for him.

For now, it feels like my heart is dead and i cant invest anymore feelings into any other relationships, but I hope someday the faith for love will return and Im able to put myself out to love someone again. Thanks, Lord, for introducing someone new into my life again. And if he happens to be the one for me, I thank you too for not allowing myself to be lonely for the rest of my life.

I hope to see Gerard and I get the happiness we have been looking for. I know for a fact that our paths wont cross anymore, but he's just someone I will not forget. Really hope to see him happy. :)

Jiahui