i thought i was recovering. but no. ain't.
got up in the morning and the feeling was sucky.
the feeling was as though i just broke up with him last night.
a form of suppression i guessed.
probably it's due to the reminiscing of memories i did last night.
told a friend that there wont be anyone like my ex anymore,
and I've also been telling him about the present and stuff.
he didn't give me advice though.
i just remembered him telling me,
"i learnt something in BGR from u."
duh. -.-
but well, it's good that he didn't comfort me.
cause' i dunch wanna hear things like "let go" and stuff.
and after telling him, i dunch feel like doing anything.
i dunch feel like chatting in msn, dunch feel like listening to songs,
dunch feel like doing this, dunch feel like doing that.
those trivial memories of us just kept recurring in my mind
like there's no ending to it.
it's etched in my mind so vividly that there's no way i can shake it off.
and before getting up,
as the suppression was too huge a thing for me to handle,
i tilted my head towards the window..
saw the immense expanse of the sky,
and u noe sth?
sometimes just by gazing the sky itself,
serenity would knock in unknowingly.(:

i keep bleeding in love,
but i remembered telling one of my ex,
bu zai hu tian chang di jiu,
zi zai hu cheng jing yong you.
so perhaps,
i should just be more optimistic and
smile aplenty?
(: